My Sexual Fantasies Explained

the reason I create my sexual fantasies is to make my beautifull female friends and girlfriends have sexual pleasures. I desire to really do those things to them; especially, with rape. The reason I desire to rape most beautifull females worldwide is due to how beautifull they are. I do not have time to try to be romantic, go on dates, or even wait for them. I do not want to take any chance that someone else will take them from me. I only have enough time to try to make them desire and want only me for themselves. If I could, I would make love and sex slaves out of all of them; of course, without making slaves of their minds. I do not desire to control their minds. In true love a male approaches a female to show attraction. If she responds, the male keeps showing more and more until she takes his offer to love her. hen she accepts, he tries to show her he is the best for her; and no one could be better. Sometimes, she will leave. She lets him know he is not perfect for her. He will leave also. Sometimes she will acknowledge he is the perfect one for her. Both of them become impatient and try to marry at the earliest possible time; to eliminate the possibility they will break up at a later time in their life. I feel the same way for my beautifull friends and girlfriends. Sometimes I wonder if I show them enough love. I know I cannot have them; but, I do not want to lose them eighther.
I know I cannot make them a love or sex slave because most are unwillingly to do that. I keep it as a fantasy.

My Female Friends and Girlfriends

Not one of my female friends and girlfriends has to make me love them; or have them. they do not have to regulate me, too. If any of them wants me to love them, they know I will not control their mind. I do not have to control them. When we are finished; and I leave, the next time will be as the first. Each and every time will be like the first time. They will decide what they desire. If I agree, we will get together. If I do not agree, we will wait until later. Noone is obligated to do, think or say anything they do not desire. Total freedom means total love. Only during single sided relationships, relationships lacking trust, or rape is anyone forced to do say or think anything against their will. Presently, slavery; except on a voluntary basis, is not allowed, healthy, or legal.

If I Was a God

If I was a god, I would keep every MOST beautifull femnale for myself. I would never let them go. I would cherish them and their beauty forever. I would create a special "Heaven" for them to live in; and never share them wit anyone. I would show them I love them more than anyone could ever love them; but, If they desire someone else as a husband, I would first have my other wives take care of them in love and sexually. If they do not desire that, I would let them be married to the male they chose. I would make their lives the most beautifull of al; even if I could not be he special one for them. If I could, I would make our beautifull babies in them. There would be continual peace, love, and happiness. They would be comforted by me if hey become sad, lonely, or unhappy. I would always be here for them because I love beautifull females; and everything about them. I cherish them all. And though I am selfish and greedy for hem all, I will always love them all; and desire to see them be happiest of all. Many call me a "God"; but, though I may seem godlike, I am just me. I would not be a god because I am too greedy and selfish; and excessively loving. My special beauties would have gold framed beds with mink mattresses and silk sheet. The carpet would be 2" thick mink. Their water would be extremely ionized rain water. Their foods would be pure, safe, and fresh from being 1 hour after processing. There would be a natural surrounding; but, buildings and houses would be present. Transportation would be nonpolluting electric. Their perfume would be natural scented; and sycamore or jasmine for my wives; if they preferred to wear them. My bed would be laced with jasmine vines all around it. Music would only contain beautifull words of a beautifull world and environment. Animals and pets would roam freely; but, be trained well. Jewelry would be beautifull; as well as fashions. And; even though I could be with them, I would love them forever. I would take no chances losing them or allowing them to be hurt. Noone and nothing can take their places if they are gone. If anything happened to them to take them away from me, I would hurt and cry for them every time time I think of them. My misery would not be stopped. I would make take greatest care for them so we may be happy always.

The Past Relationship Derangements

Avril Lavigne:When I thought Avril hate me, I learned about things too late. Now, I feel the same way as the songs. I me her when "Sk8er BOI" came out on MTV. [1] "Daydream" video: I don't know what happened; but I did never want to hurt her. I never meant to leave her. I always thought she wanted me to stay away. [2] "Smile": I never expected HAT song. It told many things about myself that I never knew she knew. She never knew I didn't wan her o lose control for a reason. I was because I cared for her. [3] "Rock an Roll": That is an accurate song. She was always like a REAL princess to me. She has the personality and character. I always told her that; but, she my have not known I really meant it. Of course, I do not drink or take drugs, so "wasted" in her video was incorrect. The girl on girl kissing was MY programming. I always thought if she couldn't be with me, my other potential wives would take care of her; and each other. TAT's just the selfish/ greedy part of me. [4] "Let Me Go": I thought that was a very good song. I hoped she finally withdrew from me; and was not hurt anymore. I was happy about that; until I felt her hurting more. [5] "Goodbye": That son hurt me more than ever. I knew I had to stay away; but, I hurt more for doing that. I feel like I am dying when I hear that song. I saw hope in her leaving; but the room was supposed o be the room she was in in the safe house she was in for years. I had her sent to concerts by aircraft. I never knew she was alone. I thought She was with he others. [6] "Wish You Were Here": I feel like I am dying when I hear this song. I never knew she became that hurt. I never meant her to be hurt; specially not hat much. I was busy in the wars. "Crazy things you said.." and did? I never knew of that. I know absolutely nothing of those events whatever the were. I always treated Avril with respect. [7] "What the Hell": I didn't mind her freedom as long as she was happy; but, I DID get jealous. [8] "Girlfriend": I thought was a great video. I loved the content. It has a great beat. She knows she is really precious to me; as well as special. I never knew who she sung about.. [9] "Sk8er BOI": When this video came out, I met Avril the first time. She was not extremely beautifull; but, she had a great personality. [10] "Complicated": This song was confusing. I always liked a high stress and complicated life. She had many things That reminded me of myself when young. I started loving her from that. [11] "My Happy Ending": When I heard that, I knew she was going to be miserable. It was not her fault. I felt miserable for leaving her. I wanted her to have the happiest ending of all. I couldn't go back to her due to war. I didn't have friends to mention. I am a reclusive person. I only have 3 acquaintances. My "friends" went across the United States to college. I never saw the people I grew up with since 1972. [12] I do not know the exact meaning of this video. I was in the Marine Corps. She didn't know I wanted her as much as she needed me. She was never supposed to know about the war is am in. It is classified 'Top Secret". I am the last operative remaining alive. I will not be coming back from the war. [13] "I'm With You"; I never knew she expected me at any place at any time. I would never do that to her. [14}] "Hush Hush": I agreed with most of the video. I had questions also. She said "Go on and live your life". That really hurt me. We lost everything to war. I didn't mean to hurt her. She looks terrible in her photo on the album. I always hated black also. [15] "How You Remind Me": This song hurt me he most; knowing Avril was that hurt. I feel like I am dying every time I watch that video. I want to be with her to comfort her; but, I know it will also hurt her more. NOTE: Avril, I will ALWAYS love you no matter what happens. You are safe and free. Since I cannot be with you, I hope you will be happy where you are. NOTE 2: I never had further contact with Avril until about 2 years ago. We always leave each other; then, the other will join us back; then, we will do something to break up. After that, the process starts all over again. NOTE 3: After meeting Avril in Galveston, Texas, I took her. There were many people trying to kill her; so, I had to make her entire band take her. I thought it was best if they took her way and took good care of her while I fought the groups. NOTE 4: I introduced Avril and Sexy Barbi together. I had them stay together until I could return. They were very well not compatable in some ways. They were from different cities and environments. NOTE 5: When I saw Avril in one of her first concerts, she was very nervous. I told her to not care what anyone hought of her and to sing like she was practicing. I made love to her. Noone saw us. I told her about how propranolol should be obtained from a doctor if she gets nervous again. She started singing in tune and regained her thoughts. She was not very nervous after I talked with her. She was my special sweetie from then and onwards. Note 6: At the first, I didn't think Avril was the most beautifull female worldwide; but, she has a beautifull personality. I wanted to marry her. I always thought she hated me. She was most physically beautifull in "Smile". I want all of her. Britney Spears: I met her during the MTV showing of "Not s Girl, Not yet a Woman". I loved her so much, I desired to keep her. [1] "Now that I found You": I do not see her; but, if she sees me, she knows too much. I do not want her to be hurt. She is my great big sweetie. I visited her when I could. [2] "Perfume": I loved that video. She is displaying jealously. I still love her. She used appropriate wording for her video. I never realized she loved me that much. [3] "Womanizer": I never wanted her to think that. I love every one of my potential wives. I realized the second person did that. [4] "Slave 4 You": That song made me think twice. I wanted her to be free to make her own decisions. [5] "OO LaLa": That was a very intensely loving song. I love her much more now. I have to prevent the selfish possession. NOTE: After meeting Britney in Galveston, Texas, I took her. She was with someone who appeared to be her mother. She was tall. I wanted to stay with her and keep her; but I couldn't due to the war. I always regretted that. Michelle Branch: Tough I loved her very much, I didn't desire her at first. When I learned of her desires, I began to willingly desire her, also. [1] "Everywhere": this a true and correct story about not being able to breathe and being omnipotent. I was in the middle. [2] "All You Wanted": I never really wanted that. Eventually, I wanted her. [3] "Goodbye to YOU": Though I never understood why she said that, I hurt very much. I never meant to hurt her. [4] "Are You Happy Now?": I thought that would be a very good video; but, it was a horror story I cannot relate to. I do not know what caused hat. NOTE: I still hurt too much to confront her. I Always loved he as a person. I considered something deeper; but, never decided. I do not know what I said or di to make her feel the way she did; but, it wasn't her fault eighther. Taylor Swift: I never even knew about Taylor until about 2 years ago; but, she seems to know much about the wars I am in. I love her also; but, as a person. [1] "22": She really threw a curve in my attitude with that song. I really loved her then. [2] "We are Never Getting Back together again": I heard this song about 2 years ago. I really loved it. It was then I wanted to know her more. It was the First time I met her. MySpace Females: I selected every one of them to be a "friend"; but, my main objective was to take them as my wives. I love them very much. I am extremely greedy and selfish for ALL of them; including those who are married or have boyfriends. Non of that really seem to have mattered. I never felt like that about anyone. Most of the Youtube musicians are there also. __________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Most Descriptive Music: [1] "With or Without You" by U2 [2] "How Can I tell You I love You" by Cat Stevens [3] "Catch the Wind" by Donovan [4] "I can't Touch the Sun" By Dr. Hook [5] "I Honestly Love You" By Olivia Newton John [6] "Angel of the Morning" By Juice Newton [7] "I Like You" By Donovan [8] "Hi It's Been a Long Time" By Donovan [9] "Catch the Wind" By Donovan [10]"Cuts Like A Knife" By Brian Adams [11]"Let's Go" By the Cars [12]"Tonight She Comes" By the Cars [13]"Dangerous Type" By the Cars [14]"Bye Bye Love" By the Cars [15]"It's All I can Do" By the Cars [16]"Magic" By the Cars [17]"You Might Think" By the Cars [18]"Video Killed the Radio Star" By The Buggles [19]"When Doves Cry" By Prince [20] "Bron Yr Aur" By Led Zeppelin _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Important Data Avril Lavigne, Britney Spears and myself only met at the time when theyyou came to Galveston, Texas. I was considering what happened between us. We only met in Galveston, Texas. A few months ago, I saw them at Youtube videos. That was the second time I ever heard from them. I did NOT even recognize them. When I saw how hurt they were, I became very upset. I knew I would never hurt them. I was involved in Avril in her 'Sk8er Boi" video. That's is all I knew. I analyzed what may be wrong in the relationship, with me, or with them. We never knew each other. I already analyzed their memory. They no longer remember much about me. Terimus of further analyses of events has been actuated. The real operatives responsible for he events was the physical entity. I resided in their Fantasy memory exclusively. I was only known by females up to the year 1980 for 100% of the outdate females; 1980-1990 for 50% of the female outdates; 1990-200 for 50% of e update females; and 200 to the present experienced 100% update females. The females who were in the safe houses were not the ones I perceived. Avril was supposedly in one of them. She was picked up by helicopter to be taken to concerts. Of the dozens of females, none of them turned out to be the ones I was supposed have had there. Some are sill in some of the houses.

Past History Terminations

Before anything further enters out of control, I am going to terminate my relationships with many females. That way, they and myself may life more happily, safely and freely.

My Complete Life

Before june, I awakened. I did not know where I was or how I got here. I opened my eyes from what seemed like a sleep. I saw total darkness. I tried to see beyond the darkness. I saw a room with 2 windows [I identified the room later] and a statue of the "Mother Mary" in between the windows. I never verified the statue. Accordingly to the mother, it was never there. I tried to breathe. I felt a tick fluid similar to karo syrup go into my nostrils. I forcibly pushed it out. I closed my eyes and everything turned black again. [1955-1958]: I was finally born. The physical body had not sufficient blood to live; though, I subsisted. The doctor gave me 2 I.V. of blood from an uncle and the father. The blood was different in types. The doctor told the mother the baby would not live. The physical body died 3 times. After a while, I was looking in a room. I was breathing. The physical had died and the spirit extracted by someone. I was in a doctor's office. The input of data from the physical entity was primitive. I came from another place. The mother was not my own. I remembered selected things that may be usefull such as jumping off of a 2 story porch many times; then, crying to get the "mother" to take me back up, only to do the same thing again. I uttered the word I learned[Jeronimo] as "Jonimo". I also put on the mother's makeup, went to the living room, danced the "Jitterbug" dance and sang "sweet pea". I actually hated the song. As I grew up, I recognized a high pitched sound that became intense. I was destructive and curious. I wanted to know what would happen during certain circumstances; as well as if they were strong enough or testing. I destroyed everything I could find. [1958] In that year, I lived in Canada and Alaska. I tried to break into a coke machine after viewing the mother taking a coke out. I did not work, so I tried to pry the bottle cap off. It did not work. I saw an 18 wheeler and decided o climb on it. The driver told me not to touch the stack. I did, and burned my hands. I went back and tried to cool off my hands with e coke bottles. That did not work. I got treatment by the mother. Late, I tried o buy a hole [which was an open septic tank] with car parts. I saw a junkyard next to the motel. I took spark plugs, wires, and bolts; then, dropped them into the hole. After a few days, I placed he last spark plug on top. I filled up e tank. The manager caught me, took me home and told my mother about it then asked "What do you teach our children now a days?". I tried to wreck a train when the mother took me to a park. I lined up rocks and twigs. I didn't want anyone to get hurt. I synchronize the operation to thin 5 seconds. the mother picked me up. After a short while, e mother ad father took me and my brother to another place. WE saw bears here. I saw 2 baby bears in a mudhole. my 'Father" old me not o move. I crawled into he hole with the bears. The father and mother brown bears were there, also; within 5' of me. Everything turned out all right. [1958-1965] Throughout these years, I was wild; but a martial artist found me and taught me philosophy and martial arts. He was from a secret society. Many came after him also to teach me. Some were Shaolin Temple High Priests.[1961-1962] I met a girl who I wanted to marry. I knew I was not suposed to play with ils; but, I did anyway.I tried to get her to love me. I was too shy to pick up on her. After a while a boy named Ritchie wanted t play, too.I wanted  kiss her; but, He supposedly kissed her first. I kept visiting her until she said se had to lock herself up. Se did a few times. Fially se told her mother I was playing with her. Her mother asked if I knew I was not supposed to be playing with girls; and, if I was returning home.I said "Yes".I Kept seeing her until se told her father about me. He came out to greet me and asked if I knew I should not be polaying with girls. I sai "Yes". He told me to go home. I asked if I could play with his son. He said he is older. I told him I could learn from him. He said I could. After a while, he visited his friend. I went to play with Amy once more. One day she told me she was moving. I asked if she would run away with me.She said "No".She moved. I went to her empty house many tomes feeling misery from losing  her. I told myself I would get a job when I turned 18; and go worldwide to fid her and marry her.From then on I asked everybody every question about he and how o contact her.Whn I was 7, a tall boy met me inthe middle of the street. He told me she ied in a plane crash. I cried off and on day and night or 9 years.  [1963-1965] In that year, I was playing with a neighbor's daughter. She was younger than myself. I asked her what Santa Clause was going to bring her for Christmas. She told me here was no such thing as Santa Clause. I argued with her futily; then, went to the mother to tell her about it. My "mother" asked "What's Wrong?". I old her; then asked if she could talk to Dana's mother. My "mother" said "It is time you knew. There is no Santa Clause.". That was all she had o say. From tat day and onwards, I never believed anyone again. I raised myself. I taught my self philosophies, religion, and beliefs. I thought if she lied to me about that, there is nothing I could trust her with tat may be true unless I verify it anyway. That was the beginning of my true life. I did what I wanted accordingly to my own restrictions. I studied chemistry. I had chemistry sets every year for Christmas from the age of 5 to about 15. I also had microscope sets also. I wanted to learn about astronomy. I as reclusive. I did not stay around anyone. I wanted to learn about everything in my room. My "father" made me go o play with others. At the age of 6, I found a girl that was unusually beautifull. I wanted to marry her. I asked her to move in with me at my house. She said she couldn't. I asked "my" mother. She said 'No" also. After I was 7, she moved away. I wanted to search for her worldwide. I just needed time to calculate how. When I was 9, I was told she died in a jet crash when the airline she was on crashed. The males of the family lived; but the females died. I cried for her from the age of 9, to the age of 18; at the least once every day and night. I grew up around strange people . I learned how to play some sports, board games, billiards, and other things. I learned to roller skate, skateboard, and experiment. I was extremely shy and embarrassed about myself. I didn't know exactly what I should do or say that would be accepted. I remained quiet for most of the rest of my life. I "Fell in love" many times with many females. I wanted them very much. I hurt being without them. I was never courageous sufficiently to talk with them. I turned to autoeroticism and fantasizing. It seemed sufficient; but, I wanted marriage also; with ALL of them. School was a large challenge. I could not understand what people were saying until the age of 28. Everything everyone said had multiple meanings. [1973-1975] At this time, I was in the United States Marine Corps band at MCRD [Marine Corps Recruit Depot] in San Diego, California. [1976-1977] I found a female I loved again. I wanted to marry her. She was a slave to a drug addicted "mafia" operative. She was raped by him; as well as he making her have local motorcycle gangs when she didn't cooperate. I was furious. I asked her if she wanted me to get rid of hem for her; but, she said 'No". I regretted not doing anything. She disappeared. I didn't see her again. I searched for her; but couldn't find her. She quit he job where she worked. I hurt for years afterwards. I wanted he for my wife. Her name was Peggy Doss. The mafia operative threatened me saying he was mafia. He introduced me to his boss. e said there was 3 ways to get out of the mafia now tat I knew who they were: [1] Kill myself [2] They would kill me [3] Work for them and die in the mafia. Immediately, I thought, I will go for option 4; To kill THEM. I had fun placing the big boss in prison. The other operative moved. He raped Peggy's 3 year old girl, and threw her against the ceiling of the mobile home they were in. He hire a hit man who missed me. He knew I was Furious. I HATED not killing all of them. Instead, I contacted the O.C.C.U. of he sheriff's department [Organized Crime Control Unit]. They handled everything. [1977] I worked in many companies from this time. I took welding courses from Daniel's International. The instructor was a welder from NASA. I took nursing and pharmacology from the local college; but, did not finish it. I worked building seismographic trucks for Western Geophysical Com[ay. I also worked as a security guard on ships under federal government confiscations, fabricated boat trailers as a welder, worked as a longshore worker, worked as a pipefitter's helper, took OSHA courses and pipefitting courses, and I worked construction at refineries. [1977-1980] I took Chemical engineering technology; but did not finish it. I moved to Wisconsin in 1980. I worked many jobs including Industrial radiographer , welder/fabricator, long shore, and others. In 1979, I went to the country due to excessive lonliness. I didn't which was worse; to be alone in society miserably, or to be in the wilderness alone miserably. I had to come back due to being evicted from the city I entered. [1980-1985] I lived in Madison and Middleton, Wisconsin for about a year. I taught Martial arts there. I had to leave due to extreme chaos there. I came back in 1980. From 1980-1985, I was in a major war with government defects of Police to Counterintelligence Agencies. It is still in effect. I was blamed for reporting events weeks, months or years before they occurred. I investigated many people. I had a credential in the "Presidential Task Force" under George Bush; but, when I found sufficient evidence to place him in death row over 600 times, the war became personal with government defects. I was in the middle of the war regarding "Rodney King" incident. I met an ex-convict released on the streets with other life imprisonment and death row convicts released on the streets. I rained him to obtain a job and survive the world. In these years, the government was fighting the Russian Intelligence. "President" Bush stated there were Russians listening to the White House. They were; in actuality, using psyops and psywar against the white house members. The Navy Counterintelligence was terminated due to Lt. Col. Reidel and Major Harris operations. Major Harris hired Major Bradley to terminate me with homosexuals. Females were being kidnapped by mafia. Harold Fattig used his brown van to kidnap many females. The usual entrapment was to rape females, torture them into submission, have them pretend to enjoy sex; then, send their friends and husband the video copies. they also photographed them and placed the photos in Playboy and other magazines. A main method of termination is to rape females by numerous males who raped them every day and night. They only rested when fed. Usually; after the leader announced his arrival, they injected the females with insulin. They had massive quantities of insulin they received by taking a tiny pill many times a day that produced diabetic type syndromes. Doctors prescribed the drugs. A man named Rick Brown usually injected his victims with warm water and pumped the syringe. He claimed it placed the female in shock. Rick Brown had a "brother" named John Brown. John had a healthy bodybuilding appearance. They stated they were "in charge of raping 12-14 year olds.". Rick was a bartender then A mafia operative named Joe Selly ran a bar he called Trammps. He used homosexuals for his "buckwheats" [blackmailed operatives]. 8 Mexicans in a small blue car and 3 caucasian males in a green pickup truck beat and killed Joe on the Galveston beach. Rick Brown brought over a Cambodian that went by the name "Kim Son Chau". "Kim" had a young boy with him about the age of 16-18. Kim was a cannibal. He left headless bodies on the Galveston beach. I let him stay at my residence for approximately 1.5 years. He stated cannabals only eat black people. White people are too salty. He had Kim Son Chau's .45 pistol and passport with Visa. He sold the pistol in a Denver, Colorado Pawn shop. He lived there with a wife. If angered, he would say "I eat you liver.". He was not a bad person; nor, was he insane. He ate the hearts of people for courage, brains of people for knowledge and the liver of people for purifying his blood. He stated he only ate people equal or greater to himself. His family trained him in those procedures as a tradition. It was a religious type of rite. "David Wilson" raped his 3 year old son because he was crying. When his son did not stop crying, he cut hiss throat, cooked him and ate him. Carmelia was his wife. She is the daughter of Mirla Suayan of Galveston. Mirls purchased "Chinese Pork" from a company in Houston, Texas. It was human meat. I never convinced her to take me to the company to report it. Her husband died "Mysteriously". Many Bodybuilding types of male operatives performing the rapes shot at the F.B.I. many times with pistols, rifles, shotguns, and machine guns. David Wilson always stated about me "He knows too much. He needs to be terminated.". He knew I knew everything about him. He left and came back in 1986; then, once again in 1990. He has been tracking me continuously. [1986-1990] A that time period, he entire Intelligence agencies were fighting me. I realized I was in a major war. The main war began at that time. In the 1986 era, I stepped on a rusty nail. I went to the emergency room for treatment. The "doctors" who were there were instructed to terminate me. I did not know what they injected me with; but, I thought it to be a tetanus shot. It was deep scarlet red. After I went home, I dropped to the floor paralyzed from head to toe. Throughout a period of a few weeks, I trained myself to move, sit; then, stand. My teeth fell out in large pieces 3 days later; and for a few years. I urinated blood for 6 years. Supposedly, David Wilson was part of tat. Major Harris and Lt.Col. Reidel of the Marine Counterintelligence Agency knew of the incident. [1992] At this year, the agent Ivy of the narcotics squad set me up with a crack cocaine charge after I called the Squad 3-4 times at the least per week for 3 months. I instructed them to send a jump out van to pick up the dealers who refused to leave my house. I was prosecuted for the crack. The dealer went free after a few days in jail prior to my bust. Agent Lopez of the Police and Agent Trevino of the detectives were part of the conspiracy. I have death row charges on them presently with e G.N.A./G.S.A. They are on permanent archive. [2000-2006] I met with many professional musicians that I found on MTV. I made intimate contact with them. I visited with them occasionally. Among the musicians were other people who were actresses, models and supermodels; as well as others. I wanted them as wives. Eventually, I had over 1 billion females that were found by satellites. I concentrated on getting all of he MOST beautifull females as my wife. I had other operations to perform regarding government type operations. All of those were classified 'Top Secret" or higher. In this year, I moved from Galveston, Texas [720 Winnie] to Baytown, Texas. I lived there for a while before moving to Texas City, Texas where I am Presently stuck in. At this time, I am the ONLY operative remaining with evidence and knowledge of events and criminal operations. [2007- 2008] I lived with a female who I met. Her name is Tammy Gordy. She liked me very much. I liked her also very much. I worked as a lawnscaper and tree trimmers helper. I had to move later. I moved to a car lot. [2009] I moved to a car lot and stayed until today. I am in the middle of a fatal war. I am completely stuck here. I may not have a future now due to the hazards of the war. [2010-2015] In these years, the government hired many criminals; especially Homosexuals from "Dr. Spyncter" , that Agent Petry [A.K.A. Agent Patry] hired. I accrued excessive damage to my body from electronics warfare from Intelligence Agencies. Patry stated "There will be nothing left of you.". These people stripped my spirits and linked them onto criminals to kill them. The spirits are extremely good. The government scattered the spirits across the world. Some females also "kidnapped" my spirits. Many songs explained what happened. I was not aware of the incident until; sometimes, years later. I worked for a black male in Channelview, Texas [near Houston], for a few days. The building was not sterile. It had blood coming from pipes laying on the ground. It had a wedding chapel in back; with a dual small house for the husband and wife. A pipe was hanging above the large room. It had no connections to anything; nor, was the end capped. It ran to a large natural gas meter. It was known as a surgeons clothing Laundromat. 3 Foreigners owned it. It was located across the street from a school that was near a highway. I smelled a decaying human body near the back door. The washer I saw seemed to be a cooker. It was designed similarly to a dryer; but had high heat. It was stainless steel with a custom electronic controls. ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ [1990-2013] During these years, things were the best and worst of all. I had special satellites and electronics search for; and find, the MOST beautifull females worldwide. I was told to get cable and MTV. I did. Thee I found the MOST beautifull musicians such as Avril Lavigne, Britney Spears, Sade, Michelle Branch and others. I wanted most of them or myself. I noticed some were beautifull outside [Physically] and some were beautifull in personality. Very few were beautifull in both. I began having relationships with many of them. Everything was going well. I was going to get them ALL to marry me. It was about to come up; then, I found something very vital. I hurt many of hem very much. I hurt very much for them. I thought it was best to leave them so they could be happy. They hurt more. I tried to make many of them angry at me so would not hurt. It worked. I analyzed everything and everyone; including myself, for what went wrong. I concluded we experienced "Transmogrificational Transadmixturation". That form of contact would have been fatal for many, harmfull to others, and injurious to others with a feeling of happiness and content; as well as pleasure. My pleasure was killing tem. I created a method of deadmixturation. It worked on the females. I isolated them and separated them from me. The government defects learned my techniques and used them to attempt o kill me and the females. I became extremely miserable; but, I knew I had to set the females up with marriage so they would not notice me; and so the may be happy. I could not find anyone or them; but, my satellites did. Some of the females persisted to finding me and being with me. I sill love hem all; but, I do not desire to hurt or kill hem, so I stay away... I calculated how I could sill be with hem [Through Rape for some]; but it may not last long.. I am by fate, going to be miserably reclusive and lonely. [2014-2015] Presently, I am experiencing many conditions; as well as, complications. Here are some of the conditions: At the first, I had these conditions: [1] Asthma [2] Chronic Bronchitis [3] Emphysema [4] Apnea [5] C.O.P.D. [6] Severe; and critical Acid Reflux: The acid Reflux occurred approximately in the year 2000. I began taking Zantac for treatment. The zantac worked. The dosages were 150 mg Zantac up to 3 times per week. The dosages elevated to 2 doses per day Later, I began having acid reflux symptoms more often. That caused moderate discomfort. Pain began occurring at a level 3 [of 10]. My esophagus was extremely painfull ; ocassionally, after eating. The pain was a level 6 or greater [to a level 8]. In late 2014, I had to take cough drops to be capable of eating. Mucous within my throat was too thick for allowing food to be sent to the stomache. The mucous was white with a viscosity [thickness] of cooking oil [minimally]; and, cold pancake syrup. Flow at an incline was minimal or not present. Thick mucous would not flow down a 45 degree or greater incline. That indicated a superinfection of the throat. Drinking fluids resulted in the deposit of fluids on my esophagus. The fluids were only flowing down the esophagus. Approximately January 1, 2015, I could not eat anything solid. I could only take fluids. Malnutrition was present due to excessive dehydration from infections. Present treatments: [1] Aloe Vera : For iodine antimicrobial [ antibacterial, antibiotic] [2] Cat’s Claw: an extreme antibiotic [3] Nutrient Drink: for food replacements [4] Centrum Liquid Vitamins: For nutrients [5] Vegetable Juice: For Nutrients [not efficient] [6] Vitamin Water: For B vitamins and potassium Requirements: [1] Potassium: For heart regulation [2] Intravenous nutrients: For nutrients [3] Intravenous antibiotics: For infection [4] Hydration __________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ My Female Friends and Girlfriends: Not one of my female friends and girlfriends has to make me love them; or have them. they do not have to regulate me, too. If any of them wants me to love them, they know I will not control their mind. I do not have to control them. When we are finished; and I leave, the next time will be as the first. Each and every time will be like the first time. They will decide what they desire. If I agree, we will get together. If I do not agree, we will wait until later. Noone is obligated to do, think or say anything they do not desire. Total freedom means total love. Only during single sided relationships, relationships lacking trust, or rape is anyone forced to do say or think anything against their will. Presently, slavery; except on a voluntary basis, is not allowed, healthy, or legal. __________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

My past "Wives"

Since the 1980's, government defects intercepted my contact to others. I was redirected. The females who knew me, knew one of a few: [1] The physical spirit [2] Me from a distance [3] Me personally at occasions Many were there who saw me. Among those were MTV music video artist groups, society, international, models/ supermodels, actresses, and others. Noone found me at the present; except Britney Spears who also contains a special 'Archive" of everything. the video must be talked to actuate. Once actuated, video archives may be seen such as "Sexual", "Comedy", War", and other archives. Many were hurt by an 'Entity" that impersonated me; but, is collinear to me. Cimorelli music group knows of that data. In the early 1970's, a video was thought to be shown. In the 1980's a video about me was shown on television . It was named "The Entity". Cameras could not capture me. The incidents were of no fault of the females I Loved. I presented myself to them in ways That were special to me. I was greedy and selfish. "My Spirit" that was not very good took my place and cause chaos and destruction. Soon afterwards, tried to kill everyone he knew. I tried to hold on. I loved them; but, they fought against me trying to kill me. I left finally for a while. I only went to see them occasionally. they were in love with the one that hated them. I was in love with the one that hated me. Many things occurred. "My spirit" "loved them and left them". He hated them after starting a relationship. I kept loving them. They hated me. Finally, I had to depart due to not being compatable with them. I couldn't remain even though I desired to. I was hurt very much by those I fought against that were in my way. I was almost killed. I am still fighting the people they sent to me. I could not tell anyone what happened to me because I didn't want them to be hurt; but, it was something they not only knew about; but started. They were tricked into thinking I was someone else. Now, the damage to me is critical. I cannot be with, see, or even be around the females any longer without hazards existing from attacks. Everything is still chaotic; but, they are well. I am still blamed for things; but, I said it is better for them to be angry than it would to be hurt. I caused hem to be angry for that reason. Everything is closed and finished. Every one of them knew what happened and to who; usually only ones I didn't know about: [1] Taylor Swift Knew about the war [2] Cimorelli knew of where I was at [3] Avril Lavigne knew how I felt about her; but, not about others [She fell in love with me; but, I didn't desire her]. I had her before she knew anything about me. I wanted her and to take care of her. I was the one that made her fall in love with me. [4] Britney Spears still knows about me. She has a complete archive on everything [Neighther of us loved; but we got together anyway] [5] Michelle Branch loved me; but, I didn't want her when we were together. [6] Sade knew about the extent of my love [This will be completed at a later date]

Why Females Love Me

Females love me for many reasons. Thee are positive as well as negative things about me. Here are some of the positive and negative ways: [1] Positive: They know I LOVE beautifull females. If I love them; it is because I truly love them; even to the point of marriage. [2] Positive: They can completely trust me. [3] Positive: They know I will take care of them. [4] Positive: They know I love the enough to want to make a baby in them. [5] Positive: I can make them take me all of the way in them and still take care of tem; even if I make them come hard. [6] Positive: I make them come accordingly o as they should; Not too hard or mild. [7] Positive: I will never try to change hem. [8] Positive: I love their look when the are loved; as well as how they sound and smell. [9] Negative: I hate cosmetics and perfumes/ colognes when I make love to tem. [10] Positive: hey know if they lose themselves to me, I will give it back. I will never strip them of love. [11] Positive: They know they are free; after making love; to go, do, and think as they desire. If hey desire to come back, they may. [12] Positive: Females love how I make them smell our baby making juices that are combined together. [13] Negative: Females know they cannot rule over me or control me. [14] Positive: Females know I love them for who they are. I completely detest anyone who tries to play someone they are not. [15] Positive: Females know they may let go totally with me without losing themselves. [16] Positive: females know I am there to take good care of them. [17] Positive: Females know they are not obligated to think, say, do, or know anything anything other than what they desire. They do not love to be in love or be in a relationship with me. [18] Positive: females know I desire them a special friend and wife. [19] positive: Females know I will help teach them self control when they lose themselves. [20] positive: Females know I can love them in every way from aggressive to extremely and ultimately passionate. [21] Positive: Females know I love hem so much I am extremely jealous, greedy, an selfish for them; without burdening them with those traits. [22] Females love to smell my passionate kisses. In every ay, females realize I want to make hem feel pleasure; as well as to love them. They know they do not have to think, say or do anything but what they desire. If they desire to leave, they are free to leave. I tell them they are too beautifull and sweet to have to be jealous of others. They know no one will take me away from them; or to change me. It is normal for me to feel at way. Females love how I love heir personality, beaut, and scent so much I am greedy and selfish for hem. They know they are ultimately loved even if they do not love me that much; or, at all. They come knowing I love hem that much. The also love knowing they do not have to love me, or do anything for me to love hem that much. They also know I wait for hem to love me back one day when they are ready; If we are compatable. I do not create expectations. Some even love to be raped so they are not responsible for my actions, do not have o feel obligated; and still receive he love they desire. Not ALL females may be raped comfortably; or at all.