Living a Perfect Life

Dreams and fantasies are very good if used correctly. To fantasize; or dream about, something you desire to do in real life is the first step in actually doing it. BY learning from others,Television shows, movies; and, other places, you may develope a much better lifestyle, philosophy; and, life. By making yourself better, you become stronger; and , no longer capable of being sad, lonely; or, miserable. Your life becomes a real beautifull fantasy.
There are many things to fantasize about. When I grew up, I raised myself. At the age of 9, I had an argument with a neighbor girl. I asked her what Santa Claus was going tp bring her for Christmas. She said there was no such thing as Santa Claus. After a short argument, I went home crying. My mother asked me what was wrong. I told her what had happened. I asked if she could talk with the girl; or, her mother about it. My mother looked at me and said "It is time you know. There is no Santa Claus.". Immediately, I stopped crying. I thought of how she lied to me bout that. I swore that from that day and onward, I would never believe anything anyone ever said to me; without proof.
I felt alone. I thought "If she would lie to me like that, I do not know what else she lied about.".I began watching every good television show and movie I could find. I used music to train myself also. After a while, I studied every religion;and, took the best things of everything I learned to create a personality, philosophy; and, character. I developed myself into the closest to perfection of all; then, to perfection. I learned the best things I could to create a life that was safe, happy; and, free.
Here is how I  did it:
[1] I watched spy movies to see what government techniques were utilized to fight crime.
[2] I learned of love from romantic shows and movies.
[3] I learned etiquette from movies and shows
[4] I learned how to treat others from friends, enemies and shows.
At the first, I did not care what others thought about me. By not caring, criticisms and bullying had no effect on me. After a while, I thought very carefully what people would think abut everything I said, did;and, thought. I critically challenged myself until I was carefull to never let anyone ever be capable of criticizing me.
After that, I criticized them. Eventually, I learned to not be too worried about others problems. After I developed myself, I helped friends to develope themselves. I created a plan to try to compete with each other. We would try to become superior to each other. The greatest one would teach the other what hey knew. By doing that, we became greater and greater.t
I created main elements of life:
[1] Love: Love was something I wanted very much
[2] Sex: I wanted sex too much
[3] Happiness; I thought without happiness, I could not survive well.
[4] Safety: I wanted safety from everything and everyone that could harm me.
[5] Survival: I wanted to survive in every situation similar to the spies on television.
[6] Health: I thought without health, there is no survival.
[7] Religion: I need a good philosophy so no one would criticize what I said or did.
The main effects of life were to:
[1] avoid misery by avoiding people laughing at me, embarrassments; and criticisms from others.
[2] Live a safe life free from misery of pain.
[3] Have pleasures from love and sex. I did not realize both require great restrictions to prevent miseries.
[4] Have what I always wanted to have in material possessions.
These are things I always wanted:
[1] I wanted love, sex; and, marriage since the age of 5
[2] Material possessions
[3] Freedom from restrictions of parents and other people.
[4] To defeat crime from what I learned in spy movies
[5] Avoiding every pin and misery
[6] Friends
I utilized fantasies and masturbation to provide love and sex in my youth. I learned if I fantasize about every female I Loved, I could be very happy. This is what resulted:
[1] I expected the females to be receptive to my love and want me also. that did not work. I became miserable in loneliness and and rejection.
[2] I was hated by most; as well as criticized.
[3] I learned to realize masturbation was not good unless I separated fantasy from reality.
[4] I learned never give my love away. It was destructive. I kept my love in when I masturbated.
In most cases, masturbation was painfull; as well as love.
I analyzed my natural instincts. The first ones were:
[1] I wanted Love and marriage [ a bonded love that is nonseparable]
[2] Sex. I did not realize sex was not a solution to loneliness.
[3] Defense: I had no defense; but, running, hiding; and ambush
[4] Safety: I always analyzed my environments; and, avoided hazards.
[5[ Friends: I had the greatest of friends
From these, I developed my life. My first procedures was:
[1] Avoid being laughed at and criticized. I had to develop myself for being error free.
From various philosophies, I created the ultimate defense: strive for perfection. Religions and philosophies helped me do that.
[2] Defense: I learned martial arts. I felt safer then.
[3] Safety: Learning of hazards in life; and, staying away from them. Emotional safety from pain meant also staying out of a relationship; except for fantasy relationships.
The main things in life are:
[1] Friends: Friends help carry each other through the best; and worst, of times. Good friends may be trusted, confided in; and, Helpfull.
[2] Love: love is best kept for only the greatest one who is very special in your life. Anyone lesser will cause misery and injury. Love may be healthy or destructive. Love only the best of all. It takes much time to find that one special person sometimes.
[3] Sex: Sex is to be kept for The special one in your life. Mixing with anyone else could cause harm and misery. Fantasizing about someone that may not be good for you may result in an injurious mixture. I always thought that even after marriage, it is not necessary to have sex. Only when a special display of love is desired; especially, when desiring a baby.
[4] Safety: Always be safe to prevent the pain of injury.