The Dark Ages

 I was raised in the Dark Ages. When I was very young, I locked myself in my room for years. There was nothing to do.

My father told me everything I was to know in life. I coud not request any other information. The Father of the house ruled over the wife and chidren. The old saying "Women and children are to be sen and not heard" was a Very serious rue. No one was allowed to talk or ask questions. Anyone breaking that rule was beaten. Females had no rights up to the year 1970. They were told they had rights to silence them. Therewere no access to books at that time.

There was no television for years; or newspapers. A "News Announcer" stood on his driveway and called out; loudly, any news of the neighborhood. I;secretly, called him the "Town Crier".

Years later, black and white televisions came out with ony Charley Chan shows. There was no sound; so, I did not watch it. There were no  gameslike chess, monopoly; or other board games as well as basketball, footbal; or, other sports games. Boys stood in ditches or in the road; and, talked about only things everyone already knew. No one was alowed to discuss "Special" information for their households. 

Later, mono record players were avaiable.

There was only a school and store. Nothing else was around the area.

In 3rd Grade, A test  law was passed;nationwide, for integrating  cultures  of people. That was the first time I had ever seen a EuroAfrican boy. He was homosexual; and ran after me to kiss me. I thought he was from another star and maybe was cannabalistic. I asked him where he came from. He said a specific town. I asked him where he came from before then. He said he was born in that town. He asked if I meant his parents. I told him "Yes". He said some specific town. I thought he was concealing being exraterrestrial to take over the world.

Any females or chidren who were rebelious; or who fought against the public, was beaten to death.

to be continued.

Why I cannot be Married

 I cannot be Married because I am not comatible i THESE ways:

* Frequency and Polarity

* No one is to enslave me; I do not like slavery

* I( have noon e to LOVE me Truly

* My Lifestyle is different

* I have different philosophies

* I have different Laws

Dating Sites Messages

 For Everyone at my dating sites, Here is a pecial message to You:

If you want to know everything about me, go to: roberthocker.blogspot. If you use a bot, use a chatbot with many questions. Also use a Botnet or everyone to see what I write to others..We will Chat soon..

Bots are very well for very busy people; but, MOST men do not like the same statements or questions over and over.

I am eliminating many females from y Favourites folders. I am NOT leaving anyone. It is just we are not communicating; and, I do not desire to be a nuissance to you. I want you to be happy. Since we do not communicate, I want YOU to be fre to decide what YOU want.I Love you very much. I you desire, We may be good friends. I would Really like that. At least I have Some communique with you. If you want t be a fiend; or have any other relationship, please feel free to contact me.

I hoppe your futures will be as laying in a field of flowers on a beautifull springtime morning.. I Love you all. Kisses.

We are from very different lifestyles. Yo are much richer tan most except multibillionnaires and trillionnaires I know. I klive in extreme poverty. I need to move away from here very much; but, I am stuck here. I want to go deeper into poverty. I want to live with t wild anilmals. 

I canot be held down. I want my freedom to move and do as I desire. I do not desitre marriage. I have many things to do first.

ALL of you are very beautifull. Try to find ome for meeting someone. Yo must be very cautious. It is dangerous to meet new people. Meet them only in public places. NEver go into private olaces. Most crimes occur there. Get a background check on the person first. Get to kow him before meeting him. My est wishes for you finding your special one.

Remember; if you Really want someone, chat with them. Do not be shy.  When you are not shy, you are ready for a potential relationship. Do not be in a hurry. If someone wants you; but, you do not want them, just tell them "I am looking for a different tpe of person" or "You are not my perfect partner" or "We are not compatible".If you do not chat, people will think you are ignoiring them because you do not want them. I usually move on to the next person.

Living a Perfect Life

Dreams and fantasies are very good if used correctly. To fantasize; or dream about, something you desire to do in real life is the first step in actually doing it. BY learning from others,Television shows, movies; and, other places, you may develope a much better lifestyle, philosophy; and, life. By making yourself better, you become stronger; and , no longer capable of being sad, lonely; or, miserable. Your life becomes a real beautifull fantasy.
There are many things to fantasize about. When I grew up, I raised myself. At the age of 9, I had an argument with a neighbor girl. I asked her what Santa Claus was going tp bring her for Christmas. She said there was no such thing as Santa Claus. After a short argument, I went home crying. My mother asked me what was wrong. I told her what had happened. I asked if she could talk with the girl; or, her mother about it. My mother looked at me and said "It is time you know. There is no Santa Claus.". Immediately, I stopped crying. I thought of how she lied to me bout that. I swore that from that day and onward, I would never believe anything anyone ever said to me; without proof.
I felt alone. I thought "If she would lie to me like that, I do not know what else she lied about.".I began watching every good television show and movie I could find. I used music to train myself also. After a while, I studied every religion;and, took the best things of everything I learned to create a personality, philosophy; and, character. I developed myself into the closest to perfection of all; then, to perfection. I learned the best things I could to create a life that was safe, happy; and, free.
Here is how I  did it:
[1] I watched spy movies to see what government techniques were utilized to fight crime.
[2] I learned of love from romantic shows and movies.
[3] I learned etiquette from movies and shows
[4] I learned how to treat others from friends, enemies and shows.
At the first, I did not care what others thought about me. By not caring, criticisms and bullying had no effect on me. After a while, I thought very carefully what people would think abut everything I said, did;and, thought. I critically challenged myself until I was carefull to never let anyone ever be capable of criticizing me.
After that, I criticized them. Eventually, I learned to not be too worried about others problems. After I developed myself, I helped friends to develope themselves. I created a plan to try to compete with each other. We would try to become superior to each other. The greatest one would teach the other what hey knew. By doing that, we became greater and greater.t
I created main elements of life:
[1] Love: Love was something I wanted very much
[2] Sex: I wanted sex too much
[3] Happiness; I thought without happiness, I could not survive well.
[4] Safety: I wanted safety from everything and everyone that could harm me.
[5] Survival: I wanted to survive in every situation similar to the spies on television.
[6] Health: I thought without health, there is no survival.
[7] Religion: I need a good philosophy so no one would criticize what I said or did.
The main effects of life were to:
[1] avoid misery by avoiding people laughing at me, embarrassments; and criticisms from others.
[2] Live a safe life free from misery of pain.
[3] Have pleasures from love and sex. I did not realize both require great restrictions to prevent miseries.
[4] Have what I always wanted to have in material possessions.
These are things I always wanted:
[1] I wanted love, sex; and, marriage since the age of 5
[2] Material possessions
[3] Freedom from restrictions of parents and other people.
[4] To defeat crime from what I learned in spy movies
[5] Avoiding every pin and misery
[6] Friends
I utilized fantasies and masturbation to provide love and sex in my youth. I learned if I fantasize about every female I Loved, I could be very happy. This is what resulted:
[1] I expected the females to be receptive to my love and want me also. that did not work. I became miserable in loneliness and and rejection.
[2] I was hated by most; as well as criticized.
[3] I learned to realize masturbation was not good unless I separated fantasy from reality.
[4] I learned never give my love away. It was destructive. I kept my love in when I masturbated.
In most cases, masturbation was painfull; as well as love.
I analyzed my natural instincts. The first ones were:
[1] I wanted Love and marriage [ a bonded love that is nonseparable]
[2] Sex. I did not realize sex was not a solution to loneliness.
[3] Defense: I had no defense; but, running, hiding; and ambush
[4] Safety: I always analyzed my environments; and, avoided hazards.
[5[ Friends: I had the greatest of friends
From these, I developed my life. My first procedures was:
[1] Avoid being laughed at and criticized. I had to develop myself for being error free.
From various philosophies, I created the ultimate defense: strive for perfection. Religions and philosophies helped me do that.
[2] Defense: I learned martial arts. I felt safer then.
[3] Safety: Learning of hazards in life; and, staying away from them. Emotional safety from pain meant also staying out of a relationship; except for fantasy relationships.
The main things in life are:
[1] Friends: Friends help carry each other through the best; and worst, of times. Good friends may be trusted, confided in; and, Helpfull.
[2] Love: love is best kept for only the greatest one who is very special in your life. Anyone lesser will cause misery and injury. Love may be healthy or destructive. Love only the best of all. It takes much time to find that one special person sometimes.
[3] Sex: Sex is to be kept for The special one in your life. Mixing with anyone else could cause harm and misery. Fantasizing about someone that may not be good for you may result in an injurious mixture. I always thought that even after marriage, it is not necessary to have sex. Only when a special display of love is desired; especially, when desiring a baby.
[4] Safety: Always be safe to prevent the pain of injury.

My Medical Condition

Presently, I am experiencing many conditions; as well as, complications. Here are some of the conditions: At the first, I had these conditions:
[1] Asthma
[2] Chronic Bronchitis
[3] Emphysema
[4] Apnea
 [5] C.O.P.D.

[6] Severe; and critical Acid Reflux:
 [7] Throat and mouth cancer The acid Reflux occurred approximately in the year 2000. I began taking Zantac for treatment. The zantac worked. The dosages were 150 mg Zantac up to 3 times per week. The dosages elevated to 2 doses per day Later, I began having acid reflux symptoms more often. That caused moderate discomfort. Pain began occurring at a level 3 [of 10]. My esophagus was extremely painfull ; ocassionally, after eating. The pain was a level 6 or greater [to a level 8]. In late 2014, I had to take cough drops to be capable of eating. Mucous within my throat was too thick for allowing food to be sent to the stomache. The mucous was white with a viscosity [thickness] of cooking oil [minimally]; and, cold pancake syrup. Flow at an incline was minimal or not present. Thick mucous would not flow down a 45 degree or greater incline. That indicated a superinfection of the throat. Drinking fluids resulted in the deposit of fluids on my esophagus. The fluids were only flowing down the esophagus. Approximately January 1, 2015, I could not eat anything solid. I could only take fluids. Malnutrition was present due to excessive dehydration from infections. Present treatments: [1] Aloe Vera : For iodine antimicrobial [ antibacterial, antibiotic] [2] Cat’s Claw: an extreme antibiotic [3] Nutrient Drink: for food replacements [4] Centrum Liquid Vitamins: For nutrients [5] Vegetable Juice: For Nutrients [not efficient] [6] Vitamin Water: For B vitamins and potassium Requirements: [1] Potassium: For heart regulation [2] Intravenous nutrients: For nutrients [3] Intravenous antibiotics: For infection [4] Hydration Approximately 4 days ago, I went to the emergency room the second time within 1 week. I was almost killed in the hospital. I was finally evicted from the hospital without being charged; and, without being registered as leaving. I was given a strong antibiotic that was too strong; as well as Lactated Ringer's Solution which is prohibited from use due to adverse reactions such as hyperhydration, congestive heart failure, renal [kidney] damage, and death. The hospital ultrasonic heart analyses team utilized a research drug on me that caused near death. The substance was injected. It was called Optimas. He nurse said only they use it. They stated after 3 seconds, patients breathe it out. After approximately 1 hour, I tasted the drug once more. They stated saline solution would expel the drug; but, I was being given Ringer's solution which contains very much saline. Afterwards, My breathing was erratic. I watched the monitor. I had 78% oxygen in my blood which is serious.98% is minimal. I also noticed in 2 heart beats, my breathing was erratic; then, the next 2 heart beats, my breathing stopped completely. I was dying. I left the hospital and went home. I do not want TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AGAIN. On this day of January 24, 2015, I have managed to create an ultimate diet. I can not eat ANY solid foods as yet. I have created a special diet of Aloe vera, cat's claw, nutrient drink, special healthfood vegetable drink, vitamin water, and grape juice. The diet is extremely effective. I have not as yet eaten any solid food for 18 days. My health is stable. I monitior my heart rate, blood pressure, body fat, BMI, oxygen content of my blood with a pulse oximeter, lung volume of breathing with a lung volume measurement device, and other parameters of my health. I am in near normalized condition. I have finally determined what my conditions are: [1] The swelling of the sides of my throat are tonsillitis
 [2] The swelling of my throat is esophagitis
 [3] The b listers in my throat are class 0 cancer of the throat. The treatments for the throat cancer are: [1] Potassium: which provides immediate relief from swelling [2] Cat's claw: known to cure some cancers [3] Antacids: to lower ph
 [4] Zinc as an antibiotic
 [5] Vitamin C: for systemic purification
[6] Oxygenation: which is deadly to cancer Avoid: [1] Milk: which coats the throat and functions as a culture [2] Cheese/Eggs: which function as cultures [3] Sugars/Candies: which cause cancerous growth acceleration Today; at Saturday, February 2, 2015, I took 4 Copper tablets. The symptoms were: [1] Stomach discomfort after 3 minutes [2] My breathing was accentuated by 8o% approximately. [3] I had blood rushes to my head I had intense blood rushes to my head. My body was oxygenated extremely; in a very short time. I became dizzy; but, not unconscious. The blood rush was intense when it occurred approximately 15 minutes later. My thoughts cleared also by approximately 15%. My asthma symptoms went away immediately. It has been finalized that I have throat and mouth cancer. I have utilized specialized treatments for it. I do not have the funds for the herbs I need; so, I use throat clear tea, Green Tea, apple juice, peppermint tea, and aloe vera juice. The apple juice functions as an astringent. That may be hazardous if it causes the cancer to spread. Aloe vera helps to diminish the swellings of the cancer; except the cancer on my lower lip. Milk worsens the cancer very much. Present State: [1] Have not eaten food for almost 3 months. Liquid diet is working. [2] Cancer diminished by over 75% [3] Blisters being removed slowly [4] Lung problems almost completely terminated [1] 13-16 L/min beginning. 265-485 L/min. presently capacity Fecal Impaction: [1] I have experienced fecal Impaction since 1980 [35 years] [2] I took 2 glasses of Raspberry tea [laxative effect tea]. It proved to be a good laxative. [3] The fecal impaction I converted into a moderate constipation at the present time. July 3,2015: I began having diarrhea. My feces was very small and similar to toothpaste. I onkly had once that I had an impaction elimination. It may be a sign of complete elimination.
Continuation of this article:
On this day of 11/17/2016:
[1] I ate a can of sardines with no problems; except panic
[2] The roof of my mouth has been partially restored. Swelling has completely terminated
On this day of 11/18/2016:
[1] I was capable of eating 5 bowls full of instant mashed potatoes
[2] I ate some chicken of the Sea Packaged Salmon with a little difficulty
I took Korean Ginseng for a few months prior to this incident.
I have also found another ailment:
[1] High Blood pressure: My blood pressure went to critical; so, I monitored it. It was critically high a few times.

My Ex Girlfriends

These are a few of my ex girlfriends:
Ruth Guerri [River Recon]: I met her in the 1980's [1] She is one of the most absolutely beautifull femalews worldwide. [2] I wanted her for my wife. [3] She was taken to Playboy mansion by people who deceived her. [4] I still kept her for myself. [5] I never really wanted to leave her. [6] We had sex occassionally. NOTE: I had to separate due to intense electronics warfare attempts to locate her. I compare the most beautifull females to her. Gem Dee is the greatest competitor. Britney Spears: I knew her since she was 15. [1] W had sexual relations eventually [2] She avoided me after that time [3] I was persistent to have her; so, she resisted. She wrote "I'm am not a girl, Not yet a woman" song to show she was not ready for a relationship. [4] We separated; but, some of my spirits persisted. [5] She eventually fell in love and became very jealous of my other girlfriends. I saw her and her mother in Galveston, Texas. [6] Since the relationship became abnormal, it was terminated. [7] She became obsessive and selfish. She attempted to take all of my spirits minds which began to kill them. [8] A great war began. She was terminated of her memory of me by me. [9] She lived happily; but, the return of he memories began in progress. Avril Lavigne: The second one I met. I did not love her; but, she loved me. [1] I raped her [2] I took care of her sexually; and, loved he as a person; but, didn't love her until later. [3] She came to Galveston, Texas and was immediately attacked by ex- Marine Counterintelligence Agency Lt. Col. Teidel and street gang rapists. She was captured by a rapist slave trade group. I took her out after raping her in their house; then, raped her under my house. When the electronics control group attacked her; and tried to get her back, I had her entire band members rape her to take her away from me for her protection. [4] I left her permanently; but, learned later from her songs, she hurt very much without me. It was many years after I departed from her. I encoded her memory. [5] Later, I had her return to me in Texas City. I had her raped by The Real Sexy Barbi due to street groups attempting to program her into a sex slave. I wanted her myself;but, I had to let her go. [6] She desired to lose herself to me; but, had insufficient memory to recall everything. [7] She desires my baby in her; and still loves me; but, lives happily without knowing of me. Sarah Michelle Gellar: [1] During "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" series, I had sex with her. [2] We loved each other; but, I had to separate. [3] I encoded her memory. [4] She is happy, married; and, has children. Cher Lloyd: [1] I raped her. She fell in love. [2] We loved each other; but, electronics warfare operations kept us from being together. [3] I separated from her; and, she became angry. [4] She became jealous, hatefull and persistent to remain with me. [5] I terminated her memory by encoding knowledge of us. NOTE: the government defects attempted top terminate her. I restored her memory. Taylor Swift: [1] WE ad sexual relations together; but, very minimally [2] She became jealous and selfish. [3] I forcibly separated from her,. [4] She became very obsessive and violent. She was hurt in the process. NOTE: I encoded her memory. Cimorelli: [1] I had sex with 3 of them. [2] The other 3 were jealous; and wanted me also. [3] The 3 attempted to take my minds. That caused great violence between us.. [4] I separated. We are now extreme enemies. NOTE: I have my minds back from 3 of them I had relations with. The other 3 and myself are in violent war; especially, Amy. Anna Nalick and Courtney Love: They knew of me; but, I did not know of them. [1]They attempted to take my spirit's minds. [2] A war ensued to take my minds back. [3] We are violent enemies. Peaches Geldof: Similar to Anna Nalick and Courtney Love. [1] Courtney was jealous of Peaches. [2] After learning of the affairs, I investigated further. I obviously, encoded Peaches memory. Sh separated from her husband to live alone. I am still attempting to locate the minds of my spirits she may still have. She is one of the most beautifull females worldwide. "Strange" and "Weird" Girls on the Internet: They are listed as 'Strange" or "Weird" girls. [1] I met one at the library in Texas City, Texas. I had a strong urge to sexually take her. [2] Our spirits fought violently; but, without harm. When we met met she asked "How are you doing?". I said "Very well, thank you.". I had sex with many of the females. Curecos Females: [1] I chose them as "friends". I wanted to marry them all. [2] I kept my feelings secret. [3] I do not communicate much with them; except at Facebook. Gem Dee: The last of all. he is one of the most beautifull females worldwide, next to Ruth Guerri. Nothing happened between us; except very little sex.

I had 3 events that affected my love life:
[1] I met Amy Sterling in Texas city When I was young. I wanted to marry her at the age of 5. When She told me she was moving, I tried to get her to run away with me. She would not. After she departed, I swore  when I turned 18, I would do my best to find; and marry her. When I was 9, someine told me she died in a plane accident when she was moving. I cried off and on, day and night for 9 years.
[2] I met a beautifull female, Peggy Doss. I wanted to marry her. We liked each other; but, the local biker gang and Mafia used her as a slave. Before I could help her, she disappeared.
[3] I have a satellite I sent out to find the  most beautifull females worldwide for me to marry. I gave it specific details of a perfect female. It came back with over 1 billion names, photos; and, data. I created the ultimate care for them to prevent them from jealousy, fighting, and every other event that could possibly occur. I wanted to have them all as a wife. One day, I decided to think of anything I may have missed in taking care of them. Everything was perfect; until I realized with my first 3 calculations that I was not compatible with any of them.
I tried to drop all but about 35,000. I realized there was 40, then 45,then 50 million who remained. I could not rid myself of them; and, I could not hurt them. I tried to leave; but, the others came back.
Finally, I explained everything. The satellite communicated with them. At the last, I have 500 million remaining.

Private Supplies

These are the supplies I require for daily life: [1] 2 laptop computers: [1] 1 for Internet usage: a refurbished computer would suffice [2] A computer for transferring data: with a route and router booster for 3 mile range [2] A trimble Navigation handheld computer: ruggedized [3] All in One Scanner: 4800dpi [4] 50,000 pages of polypaper [5] High resolution digital camera: Pentax or Olympus/ Replaceable lens [6] $5 million cash